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Originally posted by Danny Ocean i was just bored and had too much cash...i went through a heroin binge back in 2005 (but i was kinda depressed then) and i relapsed this year (but just for fun)...ive never stopped cold turkey because the withdrawal symptoms of heroin are horrible physically. My GF goes to med school so when i take the Profofol, ill have to make sure someone is watching me....MJ OD'd on that shit. but yeah im hanging in there and feeling much better.

Rehab.

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Originally posted by idoru Rehab.

nah rehab is bullshit, thats why i buy my own medicines to get off it myself....no one else will help you really if you personally don't want to get off it.
i've been through it before so i knew how it was going to be...i was lucky to get everything i needed to not go through withdrawal, and im feeling good and looking better.
But you know with heroin its the best of times and the worst of times..i dont regret doing it, but its definitely over for me with that shit.
im lucky that i have people looking after me since i live alone in a country with nothing but friends.

i am not comfortable with dying like you said, but i am not afraid to die..if it happens..i think ive lived a good life for my age. I graduated from one of the top schools in hotel administration and human resources from switzerland, its way above Cornell..Tier 1 education. And now finishing up a second degree so ive always kept my academic affairs in order.

Most people i know that went to rehab come out worst.

If you have so many friends, then get clean for their sake, if not your own.

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I honestly do wish you the best of luck. I won't lie, I think you're a fucking idiot for getting involved with heroin in the first place, but there's not much point in going on about that now.

What made you turn to H, if you don't mind me asking? Have you had a really fucked up past or something like that? Or you hang out with junky losers? (sorry if that sounds harsh...)

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Originally posted by Sushipunk I honestly do wish you the best of luck. I won't lie, I think you're a fucking idiot for getting involved with heroin in the first place, but there's not much point in going on about that now. What made you turn to H, if you don't mind me asking? Have you had a really fucked up past or something like that? Or you hang out with junky losers? (sorry if that sounds harsh...)

the first time i got on it it lasted for about a year, and i was doing it because i just felt alone, went through a break up and it helped me not care about anything..i did hang out with junkie losers ho were the ones that sold it to me here in costa rica, but they were not my friends..they would steal shit etc. I got robbed at knifepoint once doing a deal as well. Then i left to Switzerland and graduated, then went to vietnam and did no drugs whatsoever since i was front office manager of the hotel. I came back to Costa Rica after about 3 years and at a party a friend had some and gave me a hit..then i started using again because i had so much free time and enough money to spend on it.
But no i have never had a fucked up past, my parents love me, i come from a very well respectable family and always had top notch education since Elementary through University, as well as everything material i desired..cant say i have ever not gotten what i wanted. I have TONS of friends and a very good social life.
I did it because, well it's just bliss when you're on it..but hell when you aren't..

but like i said, yeah it sounds idiotic to try it, but you know..its made me grow as a person and it was an experience that i will always hold on to. Thanks for wishing me luck, appreciate it.

oh and as far as my true social circle of friends, i am the only one who has ever used.

Last edited by Danny Ocean on Apr-30-2010 at 07:51

I'm really not sure that this

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Originally posted by Danny Ocean 20 mg of oxycotin 60mg of morphin 10 mg of methadone 2 cc's of ketamine 20mg of valium 2mg of xanax a joint...

is better than Heroin....


Seriously dude... Take care of yourself and get cleaned up, if not for your sake, for your friends (as Hal said).

And, honestly, good luck with it all.

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Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On If you have so many friends, then get clean for their sake, if not your own.

definitely, for them, my parents whom i had to eventually tell, and of course my girlfriend. Most importantly me..but yeah ive been one week sober from it and not even thinking about going back to it.

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Originally posted by Lews I'm really not sure that this is better than Heroin.... Seriously dude... Take care of yourself and get cleaned up, if not for your sake, for your friends (as Hal said). And, honestly, good luck with it all.

it is better in a way, you dont get that fever, or get altered and desperate..body aches..and not wanting to get out of bed the whole day, maybe i am over medicating myself for sure...
thanks again bro.

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Originally posted by Danny Ocean definitely, for them, my parents whom i had to eventually tell, and of course my girlfriend. Most importantly me..but yeah ive been one week sober from it and not even thinking about going back to it.

I am glad that you are able to be so honest about it, with yourself and your loved ones - that's really super important. Heroin's most deadly aspect is probably people's insistence that they can "handle it", that "nothing happened", you know?

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Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On I am glad that you are able to be so honest about it, with yourself and your loved ones - that's really super important. Heroin's most deadly aspect is probably people's insistence that they can "handle it", that "nothing happened", you know?

yeah this is the thing about H. I never shot up, only freebased it...aluminum and smoked the fumes. i did have to shoot up morphine, fentanyl and methadone though..as i could not get it in tablet form until recently.
but when you do not have the drug, even for a few hours..you begin to feel terrible like you won't imagine..its not psychological, its physical pain and if you dont do more of it you wont be able to function. it grips you soooo bad. i would not recommend trying it at all unless you are strong enough to say OK enough. And most people can't do that.

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Originally posted by Danny Ocean But no i have never had a fucked up past, my parents love me, i come from a very well respectable family and always had top notch education since Elementary through University, as well as everything material i desired..cant say i have ever not gotten what i wanted. I have TONS of friends and a very good social life. I did it because, well it's just bliss when you're on it..but hell when you aren't..

go tell pivotechno that!

and like others said, good luck.