I wish I had something better to say, but I've never been able to fully verbalize the important concepts that I have in my head, and even if I could, well you have to live your own life for yourself. I have faith you will do just fine.

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I wish I could verbalize what I'm feeling at the moment, and alot of what I've been feeling for the past three years or so, ever since my brother passed away. And it sucks to have to keep it all bottled up inside, with no one to really talk to, or atleast anyone who can relate to it...

EDIT: And I'm not just refering to my brother passing away. But I do miss being able to talk to him about stuff...

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"First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a communist;
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a socialist;
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a trade unionist;
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me— and there was no one left to speak out for me." -Martin Niemöller

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I'm very sorry for your loss. I wish I could say something but the fact is that I hate my own brother. More than anything else.

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Originally posted by Zild Come on you're not that dense. I'm talking about Imran says something than aussie broad clips his nuts pretty good then Imran gets butthurt all the while Lazaro and aussie broad laugh their asses off further contributing to the cracking up of teh shaolin

Plus young men anywhere don't take any kind of jokes toward them in jest as theyre hot headed and defensive of their egos, we don't communicate well, mostly and a US-UK style humour thing which gets lost in translation. Americans don't really get the non-malicious, self depreciating humour, stirring and banter, they do understand jokes about other people and subjects which they arent concerning them.
Hence the hostility sometimes when one side doesnt get the joke.

So, basically I always have to tread, very, very softly to avoid treading on the proverbial balls and mostly I do. Sometimes I dont but hell, I'm not 'perfect;, I make mistakes and theres plenty of things that are said here on TA of a misogynistic nature I really don't find humourous at all so it's not like I exactly feel very comfortable here about 50% of the time and theres been plenty of times in the last 6 years I've been here I felt threatened enough by people in PM's or email to leave altogether.

I do understand what he's going through as I've been through it all in one form or another at some point, I tried to help and was unable to as our personalities clash so badly so I just try to keep it to civilised, light hearted banter.
So sorry for any unintentional hurt

and I really need to get going...

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I already had a fair bit to deal with before that happened, but that's when it all for progressively worse. And it hasn't gotton any better yet. You only get to live once man. If I were you, I'd try to figure out a way to be on better terms with your brother. And anyone else in your family. I don't have any of that anymore. I basically haven't ever had a relationship with my dad (more like a terrible one), and I pretty much don't talk to my mother anymore eigther. But I'll go into details about that in a PM at some point.

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"The Greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge." -Stephen Hawking
"First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a communist;
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a socialist;
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a trade unionist;
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me— and there was no one left to speak out for me." -Martin Niemöller

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Originally posted by Lilith I do understand what he's going through as I've been through it all in one form or another at some point

Actually you don't, there a lot I never got around to talking to you about. And you didn't really give me a chance after you know what.

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"The Greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge." -Stephen Hawking
"First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a communist;
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a socialist;
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a trade unionist;
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me— and there was no one left to speak out for me." -Martin Niemöller

I knew you were going to say that, but it is way too far gone for that. I don't mean to be disrespectful in anyway, its just we have our own demons is all.

It reminds me of a joke I heard a few years back where this guy said well islam and christianity are brothers, and as such they should embrace each other. Well the guy quickly snapped back, "you've never known any brothers who hated each other's guts?"

I wish Bob Dylan was my brother, or anyone really instead of a pathlogical liar federal convict I don't give a fuck about anyone except myself prick from hell only job I could ever hold was at a strip club goon.

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Kill the women. Eat the children.
It's just one of those days where you want to bend over everyone you know and kiss their ass goodbye with a big sideways boot.

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That's kind of funny. Although it doesn't have anything to do with this in case you're implying anything about whatever.

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"The Greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge." -Stephen Hawking
"First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a communist;
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a socialist;
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a trade unionist;
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me— and there was no one left to speak out for me." -Martin Niemöller

most definitely am not trying to get political at this point

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Kill the women. Eat the children.
It's just one of those days where you want to bend over everyone you know and kiss their ass goodbye with a big sideways boot.

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LOL. BTW, I was listening to your set earlier today. That last track, or maybe it was the second last track, was awesome.

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"The Greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge." -Stephen Hawking
"First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a communist;
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a socialist;
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out— because I was not a trade unionist;
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me— and there was no one left to speak out for me." -Martin Niemöller

Is it the "Burn My Shadow Away" track?
that's the last one,

Second to last one is:

Kiki - Trust Me (Cowboy Mix)

And yea shouldn't listen to too many of my sets. Texas can't handle me. Im currently not taking any booking in state.

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I've never been able to eat a whole baby.
Kill the women. Eat the children.
It's just one of those days where you want to bend over everyone you know and kiss their ass goodbye with a big sideways boot.

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