|Originally posted by Zild |
The thing is I was trying to go home and they blocked me into an elevator and kept riding it from the top back down to the bottom the whole time spewing verbal insults. I have thick skin and I can take a lot but something in me just snapped on that occasion.
Understandable. I don't like violence eigther, especially because I know I'm easily capable of seriously f'ing most people up. People really have to push my button to make me. In my last complex, this dude who was my neighbours friend, a real pretentious jerk, just wouldnt leave me alone. He even kept standing right at my apartment door, which I left open. I was cleaning up my place and wanted some fresh air in the process. Having not slept for two days as I'd been working on some projects, he finally managed to piss me off enough to force him to get lost. I issued a non-agressive warning for him to leave, and he didn't. Without really conciously deciding to do anything, I noticed my hand was clenched into a fist going straight for his rib cage. But I managed to excercise enough self control in a split second to unclench and just push him out of my door entrance. Then the he freaked out and called the cops on me . What a wuss, seriously. Ofcourse, because of kung fu training in the past, I don't really have to exert a whole lot of force to make someone go flying back (technique, not power). Alot of it is kind of conditioned in by now, so I guess I didn't realize how that could easily throw a non-martial artist off balance. Even the three cops who showed up at my apartment were like, what the hell is this BS. And they didn't say a thing to me and just left after hearing both sides of the story.
I just can't stand bullies. Not that I'd care about dislocating/breaking a few of their bones/bloodying them up, especially when they're racist pricks, but I'd certainly regret loosing control and lashing out. Like I said, I'm not fond of violence. But I also don't have any tolerance for (racist) provocations from bullies. So no, I'm not freaking psychotic.
EDIT: No, don't worry. I've never actually gotton to the point where I did permanent damage to anyone, or bloodied them up. They usually stop get the message and back off before it gets to that point, and I have enough self restraint to stop at that point. I'm not vicious by nature at all, quite the opposite, and I don't like inflicting needless pain or suffering.
EDIT2: Actually, the only time I do have trouble with selfrestraint is when men are abusive towards women, that's when I kind of loose it and don't have much sympathy.
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Last edited by shaolin_Z on Feb-04-2007 at 10:49