quote: | Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles
I don't really think things will go wrong, actually. I just think things will go. And go. And go. And I will watch them. |
I have to say, once I did a massive mushroom trip and I had this experience where I attained this 'witness' perspective. I think of it now as a god-like perspective, there was a lack of ego and individuality, it was the sense that I was a witness to the entire world which was doomed to exist as long as I was doomed to witness and vice versa.
It quickly became hellish and in that state I started to panic because I comprehended the meaning of 'eternal'. The reason it became hellish is that I realized that my experience from here on out would be and endless and meaningless stream of freakishly heightened awareness of suffering, and that death was not even an escape, but just another eddy in the stream. Then I realized that there was no need to suffer eternally if I just accepted everything that comes and comes and comes, as things 'go and go and go'. One has to go with the flow, basically. It's like when you are dreaming, do you argue with the dream and say, I'd rather dream about this? No, the dream comes and it happens the way it happens.
It was very disconcerting to say the least, because I realized I was not ready for that broad of perspective, and that I had a lot of work to do on myself in order to become accepting and not slave to desire of pleasure or pain. I was not ready for the perspective that the mushrooms bestowed upon me temporarily, and I became rather wicked and tormented during the trip because I still retained all of my desires while having this immense perspective. It was far, far too much to handle for me. I realized then the value of doing everything in life with love, compassion, and humble acceptance. For me personally, the goal of life is to put an end to this cycle of pleasure or pain, through complete and utter acquiescence to reality, as it is and can only ever be.
Things will go, and go, and go, and you will watch them. Pain and suffering arise when you take issue with the way things are going, when there is a thought or a desire. Desire necessarily conflicts with the going of things. The way I think of it is that if this endless stream of life/experience is a river, your thoughts are like obstacles such as logs or rocks that create rapids and cataracts (conflicts). So I guess what I am saying is, enjoy the ride, because that's anyone can do, and everyone finds out eventually that they really aren't the ultimate master of their individual fate even if they think they are from day to day experience.
and as winston churchill said:
"If you are going through hell, keep going."
Last edited by nefardec on Apr-29-2010 at 16:54
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